It was a windy day with busy people whom were moving fast through the busy roads in colombo..I was running towards the bus station fast after my school.."Bus wont come this much soon Sara..But we have to run in to the halt as it's raining" My friend Anushka cried through the loud noises while stepping fastly... "Wait for me Anu" I said in dismay, following her... I rushed through the people and suddenly I got hit over someones body and I fell down hard... My back started paining and my books fell all over the mud payment...I was so angry with the incident...I stood up and tried to tie my hear which went all over my face...I saw Anushka Shouting at someone with anger..It was sorrow more than the anger in her words... "Idiot..Idiot..Dont you have any eyes fool? Cant you see? huh? I shrugged from her words..It was angry hot and wild... "I'm sorry..I never meant to do so..I was in a hurry to catch my bus..." "It must be your theme song right? Never meant to do so and blah blah..." Anu replied him sarcastically....I coludnt see anything because people were moving fast In-front of me...I leaned forward and spent a moment in order to see his face...
I was shocked after seeing his face! OH GOD!!!! he had the most passionating eyes among the guys that I have ever seen..He was so decent and also handsome..He was just like a prince...I shivered Not from the cold..because of his charming eyes and the look...I felt like I was melting in front of his eyes.... "Sara lets go..Bus has arrived.." Anu pulled my hand tightly....
IT WAS THE BEST DAY IN MY LIFE!!!
I became sick!! More than me,my heart was SICK!!! I started becoming weak day by day..BECAUSE I NEEDED HIM!! I LOVED HIM! I WAS SO crazy for those eyes... My heart yelled for him,for his eyes!!!!
"Anu I need him..Please Anu..I will die" Everyday I cried....
"Are you crazy Sara? we don't even know him...Try to control your self for gods grace..." Each and every time when I cried..Anu had the same answer...
But I couldn't get him off from my head...I missed my school and extra classes too...Because of my pathetic situation Anu had to find about him....Finally she had a good news with her about him..He was a bank manager near our school named Ishan..And I was so happy after hearing about that.... From the first glance I fell in love with him...I lived my life Only for him,only because of his love...I became a crazy woman because of Ishan.....
But my fate didn't let me down...For the second time I Got a chance to meet him..Don't know whether it's a co-incident or not...But I thanked god a lot for giving me such a precious chance...From our second meeting we became so closer to each other..He was a sweet and a good person...We met everyday near the usual bus stand which we first met..Day by day my Love towards him started increasing..But I was poor in expressing my real emotions to him..more than that I was afraid....
"Sara whats the meaning of this? It's almost 2 years now..You guys meet,talk and laugh..Is that the only thing that you guys have to do? Cant he tell that he loves you? If not why can't you tell huh?" Anu's depressed words always troubled my mind....
"Though he doesn't say it...I know that he loves me..I can feel him...I can see his love from his eyes and behavior Anu"
Anushka was so upset about our silence..But I always tried to dismiss those topics...
Ishan always brought me gifts..and each and every time he gave me those,He never forgot to kiss my face softly...I knew that he kissed me always because he loved me a lot..It was the only thing I needed from him.....
I always waited for him in the bus halt after my school..He never became late....he never wanted to make me feel bad by getting late....
But one Friday,December evening..I felt some difference..It was about 4 pm and still Ishan appeared...I waited and waited..But finally I saw Anu running towards me.... I saw tears rolling from her eyes...
"What,what happened Anu" I asked with fear...
Suddenly she hugged me and starting crying loudly....
"Ishan....Ishan....He wont come again Sara...." Anu shouted....
"What happened to my Ishan,Anu please tell me..Where is he"
"Few minutes before he came to meet me and told me to give this letter to you" She said while handing a small letter to me...
AND IT WAS THE MOST DREADFUL MOMENT IN MY LIFE!!!! It was his beautiful hand writings...SAYING.......,
Sara my angel,
I bed you please forgive me my sweet angel....I lied you and I don't want to lie you anymore...From the first day I saw you...I realized that you are a girl with soft and lovely feelings..I could feel your love towards me from you eyes....But Sara you are still 18 and too small... Don't get lost in Love..You have to go a long journey....Today it's my 3rd wedding anniversary...I know that you can't bear my words....But today I leaving here to Australia with my wife and kids.... and I wont come again...I have to right to feel your love....Have a bright future....ISHAN....
I stood up in the same position without moving as If I have no right to cry even to laugh for ISHAN..he belongs to someone else..Not me....
But still I'm waiting here FOR YOUR EYES ISHAN!!!
I don't know what to do, I can't stand the pain,
Seeing you hold her is driving me insane,
I can't erase my feelings, no matter how hard I try,
Drinking doesn't take away the feeling of wanting to die.
You're the one I think of before I fall to sleep,
You're the reason I've been cutting so deep.
You're the one I want in my life,
You're the reason for all this strife.
I'm stuck in between, the guy I'm falling for,
Now I know that you don't want me any more.
If its true then why do you lead me on?
You've got to know I'm pretending to be strong.
Those hugs you give me, mean so much more,
Why can't you see you're the one I'm falling for,
I know I was the one who broke us apart,
But now you're the one whose breaking my heart.
I can't understand, why do I feel this way?
Why can't I tell you, all these things I want to say,
Why can't you understand that I still feel the same,
When will you stop with your stupid game?
If I told you i loved you, how would you feel?
Would you even understand that what I'm saying is real?
What would you do if I told you goodbye,
I can't take this any more, I'm over your lies
I can't continue to pretend,
All I want is for this thing to end.
I know there's no point, but I'm asking "Do you even care?"
